A whole new world...

So ... it's been a while since I've made an installment.

This time I am going to give the inside scoop.... my darling best friend, sweet Husband, is fresh out of rehab...

For???

Alcohol and chemical dependency.

He is now:

Fresh...

New...

Clear headed. :)

He has been, for about 10-11 years, a "functioning" alcoholic and marijuana smoker ( amongst other short lived trials in the chemical world) ... however, a hard worker to the core. We have been through some abysses and back again by the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ.

Now ... I have the love of my life, besides Jesus, back and I love it!! We have recently celebrated the victory of 28 days sober. Every moment and every day is just taken one at a time. As he says ... "it's one day at a time and after a while there will be a collection of those "one day’s” and soon it will be months and years."

I didn't realize the kind of time alcohol can siphon out of your life and love. It's such a gift to be able to recapture the time lost in a new future. I've never felt so old and so young all at the same time. We laugh more and hug often (amongst other touches of sweet tenderness. ;)) I do not take for granted the blessing this is.

At then end of his time at the ranch, I came up for family council and education. So many do not have the hope that I have carried for some time now, though on many occasions I have felt completely lost and deeply broken myself. There is such a deep resentment and shattered souls, not only in the patients that are there but their families and loved ones. It breaks my heart and at the same time makes me lift them up to the only One who can mend them. We, Aaron and I, count each moment, rough and smooth, true blessings from the Lord.

What a path this new road less traveled on is.... grassy cushion, encompassing lively forest, and a bright light leading the way. It is truly a gift beyond what I can describe in words at this time.... so until I can wrap my mind around it... I will sign off and share more on another day.

For those who are long suffering.... do not give up, do not give in, plant your feet on solid ground for the Lord has blessings abundant in the end. Your hope and heartache are not falling on deaf ears.

*written after returning from rehab with Aaron 2 days before our 10 year anniversary ...

finished post January 2008 -- j.m.m.