Today is the day of freedom, new chapters, and fresh starts.... it GRADUATION. Not mine. I haven't been in school for some time. It is, however the special day for some of my dear friends at George Fox, my Alma Mada.
I am in my favorite home away from home checking my e-mail, figuring out my new phone and in walks a rather new friend... who just happens to be in town for graduation. The last time I saw her we were meeting each other at Ben's "good-bye" memorial. Ben would have accepted his diploma today... Rachael did for him. I hugged her with compassion and wonder filling my heart and mind.
I wonder how Rachael is doing... and she shares with me that she is getting up every morning... she's being. The memories and emotions run like a roller coaster with all of it's highs, lows, and irreplaceable rush of feelings. My heart aches yet there is this underestimated peace that covers.
My new friend smiles ... "you've been on my mind a lot. thank you for spending the time with me the last time I was here." I'm in awe of such a thank you. That is what we should do when we see people hurting and crying inside... it's what Jesus would desire... for us to see people and feel what they feel because we choose to look beyond. "you are so welcome. it was my (humble) pleasure. thank you."
"my name's Nichole. what's your name again" she asks with her trade mark smile and friendly grasp of my wrist. "Jeanette. Nichole... Ben's cousin." We share a bit more and she fills me in on the happenings of a family grieving but surviving. "I just wanted to come by and let you know that you are on my mind a lot and thank you. I hope to see you again soon." "I'm so glad that you did. Please know that my heart and prayers are with your family. May the Lord's blessings and peace fill and comfort your family." "thank you."
she smiles. we hug. she leaves with other family members.
As she leaves I say a quiet prayer and here the song playing over the speakers of the coffee house... where Ben used to serve it up with a smile and some antics.... "if i could change the world..." wow. what a song.. for this moment... in regards to our friend Ben... incredible timing as usual Lord. I love you and thank you for being in every moment. You know he spent many moments trying to do that. What a gift you give us with such people and friends. You are an Awesome God.
1 comment:
Your connection with someone you don't know personally is delighful to see. The way you write takes me right to your hair pin so I am meeting her as well. Thank you for including me in your out pouring of compassion for this family who is healing. Sincerely (:
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